Happy Birthday my sweet Dad

Happy 89th birthday Dad. It is interesting to imagine what life would be like for you if you were still with us. It would only be acceptable to have you still be alive if your health were good. It was really hard to have you be so sick right before you died and to know that the quality of your life would have been so different from what you were use to.
I think of you often. Not as often as right after you died. It is hard to believe that it has been 18 years! I know for a long time I thought of you each and every day. But as always, I have questions I want to ask you. It is always, "Oh, I wish I could ask my dad about that." You were always so good to answer my questions and help me understand.
I especially wish I could just get your advice. I need your advice!
I love you so much! I miss you! I am so grateful for what you taught me. I recognize more and more the sacrifices that you and mother made for me. I am sorry I wasn't more appreciative. I am grateful that Heavenly Father gave me you as my earthly father. I so look forward to the day that I can once again hug you and mother and be with you.